"There is actually one more memory i just came across of right now. I remember seeing you at lunch, when we were still in school. I saw you, and we exchanged hugs right next to the M buildings and memorial. i asked what you were up to and you said nothing. You were really pretty, and beautiful as always. we walked around a little while because lunches ARE boring. I remember going across the grass and talking to Lily and Diana with you. I remember it was fun. We avoided the mud, because we were cool like that 8). I don't think you'd possibly remember that, or even would want too since it sounds so lame.
I remember a lot of things, and it pains me so. . you had a bf back then, so i stepped back. idk what i'd do if you had another bf..maybe cry myself to sleep? things could have been so much different if you still went to IHS. "you tell me a whole year to tell me this?" is what you said before.
sigh, this is much harder then i thought it would be. i have nothing to do at home. =(.
& i really want to take you out again. maybe i should be more outgoing, at a more outgoing orientated place. that sounds a lot of fun..maybe to me. i'd love another shot, and if you're willing to take me at that shot. "
You can't google my private blog, I disabled it.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Vindicated, I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right , I swear I'm right..
Normally, this would be on my private blog BUT this is actually more suited for the public. I'm blowing off more steam and confusion as usual, but my blogs usually is more condense.
Yesterday had more downs than the ups. I'm getting my permit in December, and my License in June! An up is that my sister is going to help provide for a car for me! But, still this wasn't what I clearly want. I want to be able to take someone out in the LAST YEAR of my fucking school year. But my feelings may subside if I get the used car that I've been dreaming of. Seriously, not being able to drive takes 99% of my comfort zone with anyone. If I get a car, it may literally be over with my senior year. That's why everything that happens now means so much to me. I want to keep moving as much as possible. I'll be going to college after, and I know things won't be the same as high school. I know they're are many fish in the ocean, but how do you catch the right fish, and keep things going?
It'd be nice if I can snag a used MR2.
Anyways,
I don't think I'll step out of my zone for a while. Maybe I'll end up curling up into a ball throughout my senior year?.I kinda curled up my junior year, since I didn't really talk to anyone special. It's for sure that I didn't have anyone in mind for the whole year. That kinda made me feel like shit even more. However, that question pops in mind ," Can we try some other time?" Well, until things clear up in my head, I'll probably have to go with the flow of time. "Like a feather in air,".
But yeah, freal tho. I don't imagine myself dating ANYONE I know in our senior class. ^ hence the curl into a ball reference. 1/2 the girls are probably chilling with some dudes smoking it up, or popping pills. That leaves the other half to be fake. I don't know where to find anyone genuine anymore in the senior class. I know them too well, and nothing can be gained from that.
I hate memorial grove. I don't get to meet much new people because of that place. No one walks by the place enough. Not enough commuting people! I want some friends of mines to MOVE to a bench in the B Commons, where the previous seniors were. & Someone I asked to move to different benches said we were staying at memorial for 3 years and might as well continue. Wtf? That place is muddy as hell in winter/spring time. Sprinklers even went off on us a couple of times. 50 feet away are some pretty dorky kids who hit each other every damn day. Don't tell me that I'm changing, I'm telling you that hanging out at memorial was a mistake! B commons also has closer lunch lines, benches, and more passive people roaming around. And, no mud or sprinklers.
Anyways, RAH! will be sending in my sweater in a few days. Next thing on the list is cologne.
Yesterday had more downs than the ups. I'm getting my permit in December, and my License in June! An up is that my sister is going to help provide for a car for me! But, still this wasn't what I clearly want. I want to be able to take someone out in the LAST YEAR of my fucking school year. But my feelings may subside if I get the used car that I've been dreaming of. Seriously, not being able to drive takes 99% of my comfort zone with anyone. If I get a car, it may literally be over with my senior year. That's why everything that happens now means so much to me. I want to keep moving as much as possible. I'll be going to college after, and I know things won't be the same as high school. I know they're are many fish in the ocean, but how do you catch the right fish, and keep things going?
It'd be nice if I can snag a used MR2.
Anyways,
I don't think I'll step out of my zone for a while. Maybe I'll end up curling up into a ball throughout my senior year?.I kinda curled up my junior year, since I didn't really talk to anyone special. It's for sure that I didn't have anyone in mind for the whole year. That kinda made me feel like shit even more. However, that question pops in mind ," Can we try some other time?" Well, until things clear up in my head, I'll probably have to go with the flow of time. "Like a feather in air,".
But yeah, freal tho. I don't imagine myself dating ANYONE I know in our senior class. ^ hence the curl into a ball reference. 1/2 the girls are probably chilling with some dudes smoking it up, or popping pills. That leaves the other half to be fake. I don't know where to find anyone genuine anymore in the senior class. I know them too well, and nothing can be gained from that.
I hate memorial grove. I don't get to meet much new people because of that place. No one walks by the place enough. Not enough commuting people! I want some friends of mines to MOVE to a bench in the B Commons, where the previous seniors were. & Someone I asked to move to different benches said we were staying at memorial for 3 years and might as well continue. Wtf? That place is muddy as hell in winter/spring time. Sprinklers even went off on us a couple of times. 50 feet away are some pretty dorky kids who hit each other every damn day. Don't tell me that I'm changing, I'm telling you that hanging out at memorial was a mistake! B commons also has closer lunch lines, benches, and more passive people roaming around. And, no mud or sprinklers.
Anyways, RAH! will be sending in my sweater in a few days. Next thing on the list is cologne.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Her Wings
RAH!
Daniel and I are headed to the bank to order this sick sweatshirt! LIMITED ED, size medium. 50 made! Maybe I can sell this for more, if demand for these get high :).
Anyways, the date went well. I want to take her to some other placee. I didn't think she'd be staying there for hours, so that kinda killed the mood beforehand. But, she's a good person, so I can't be upset with her :P.
Daniel and I are headed to the bank to order this sick sweatshirt! LIMITED ED, size medium. 50 made! Maybe I can sell this for more, if demand for these get high :).
Anyways, the date went well. I want to take her to some other placee. I didn't think she'd be staying there for hours, so that kinda killed the mood beforehand. But, she's a good person, so I can't be upset with her :P.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
The date's tomorrow. =)
Today, I applied online to work @ ATT. I felt confident in meeting their needs, but not too overconfident. It appears that they're hiring in SJ. I hope to get word from them!
Curve for Men is really nice. I'm thinking about buying the largest(6.8)oz bottle for the long run! $40 at it's lowest. =(. That's the same price of some cheap blk/wht half cabs =O. But w/e, shoes can always wait since I have 4 pairs that are still rockable. I still need some t-shirts to buy too. My sister's taking me out for shopping! 0=), She spoils me :P. She pays for our phones and lets us have unlimited texting. We're entering August fast, and soon enough I'll have to pick up my schedule and take pictures for the school ID.
" The 2009-2010 school year starts on Tuesday, August 25, 2009. "
Holy shit. I'm kinda excited for school to start, I guess. Kathy will be back on the 16th from DC. Dude, she HELLA needs to do her summer HW aha ;).
Oh hey, it school starts on a Tuesday! Maybe I'll head to Silver Creek on Monday, if they don't have school.
RAH! Tee's are sick. I wonder if LT is still making tees. Illmindeds rock too. AG is pretty whack. Damn! shirts are alright, but I've seen better.
Curve for Men is really nice. I'm thinking about buying the largest(6.8)oz bottle for the long run! $40 at it's lowest. =(. That's the same price of some cheap blk/wht half cabs =O. But w/e, shoes can always wait since I have 4 pairs that are still rockable. I still need some t-shirts to buy too. My sister's taking me out for shopping! 0=), She spoils me :P. She pays for our phones and lets us have unlimited texting. We're entering August fast, and soon enough I'll have to pick up my schedule and take pictures for the school ID.
" The 2009-2010 school year starts on Tuesday, August 25, 2009. "
Holy shit. I'm kinda excited for school to start, I guess. Kathy will be back on the 16th from DC. Dude, she HELLA needs to do her summer HW aha ;).
Oh hey, it school starts on a Tuesday! Maybe I'll head to Silver Creek on Monday, if they don't have school.
RAH! Tee's are sick. I wonder if LT is still making tees. Illmindeds rock too. AG is pretty whack. Damn! shirts are alright, but I've seen better.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Welcome, PUBLIC.
Hey, this is just a prologue, and a damn long one too. Skip it if you know me! If not, please do get to know me!
[PROLOGUE]
Hey, IDK if I'll keep this blog up, but it's the public version. I have a private blog, and well.. it's private. Anyways, I'll have another blog up for the public too, stealing Antoine's "1 pic / day" idea once I get my camera phone on Aug 2. I've had many previous blogs before, however I feel that separating blogs between private and publicly viewed is much more reliable.
Oh, and for those who don't know me, but would like to know me better, just follow me here on this blog. I'm kind, and I won't bite, unless you snarl or bite me first. At this moment, my current state is as following : senior @ Independence High, 17, driver license-less, complete Vietnamese, and awesome :). Don't get me wrong, I'm usually a pussy when trying to meet someone new. But, even so - I get quite friendly with everyone. I'm no messed up fuck head, I promise. I love Hip-Hop, R&B, underground, and acoustic R&B. I like some certain indie rock, pop, and somewhat techno/trance! In terms of gaming, which I do no longer play, I liked racing games, shooters, and RPGs (basically them all! haha). Anyways, I love shopping for swag, shoes, and gear. Although I do not have the money to afford it, just talking about is also nice. Talking about it gives me people opinions, which is great.
Oh and I have a tendency to use commas a lot. It may occur to you that there may be many run on sentences.
I'll probably post a lot of swag that I want, or maybe some important news feed and possibly rant also. All the cool rants are on my private blog! ;). Anyways, shall we get started? =)
[BlOG]
Anyway's WUSSUP world? I ordered my shutter shades 2.0 and THEY ARE SICCCK. They're mainly for style, so don't be hating for usability. They're authentic ones too, so as expected, I hate all knock off versions of any shutter shades. Rocking a cardigan with it is just SWEET. I want to get a scarf for the winter season, but I'm not quite sure of what I'm looking for. Bandannas usually also keep me warm, so maybe I'll get those too for the swag.
I did nothing valuable today, but went on MySpace and played a bit on the 360. I need to start working out again, my biceps were in great looking condition. Today is project soul, but no one I know seems interested to go so W/E. I remember being in the tricking and BBoying scene for a little while. It's still cool to me, but I don't have the time to view and watch videos or live performances. HMM, this blog needs to be livelier though. What's juicy..? Ah, nothing. I'm boring! haha.
Well, let's see what I want over the next year. Man, my bank is gonna break at this rate!
+ My computer to be repaired :| .
+ New Earphones (for my Sansa Fuze)
& after knowing I can save up for senior prom.. (It may cost up to $800! FFFFF. JOB NOW PLZ)
+ Van's Half Cabs (black / white)
+ Scarves and Neck Bandannas
+ One more pair of skinny jeans
+ More t-shirts, illminded tee's rock
+ Track jacket and a hoodie
[PROLOGUE]
Hey, IDK if I'll keep this blog up, but it's the public version. I have a private blog, and well.. it's private. Anyways, I'll have another blog up for the public too, stealing Antoine's "1 pic / day" idea once I get my camera phone on Aug 2. I've had many previous blogs before, however I feel that separating blogs between private and publicly viewed is much more reliable.
Oh, and for those who don't know me, but would like to know me better, just follow me here on this blog. I'm kind, and I won't bite, unless you snarl or bite me first. At this moment, my current state is as following : senior @ Independence High, 17, driver license-less, complete Vietnamese, and awesome :). Don't get me wrong, I'm usually a pussy when trying to meet someone new. But, even so - I get quite friendly with everyone. I'm no messed up fuck head, I promise. I love Hip-Hop, R&B, underground, and acoustic R&B. I like some certain indie rock, pop, and somewhat techno/trance! In terms of gaming, which I do no longer play, I liked racing games, shooters, and RPGs (basically them all! haha). Anyways, I love shopping for swag, shoes, and gear. Although I do not have the money to afford it, just talking about is also nice. Talking about it gives me people opinions, which is great.
Oh and I have a tendency to use commas a lot. It may occur to you that there may be many run on sentences.
I'll probably post a lot of swag that I want, or maybe some important news feed and possibly rant also. All the cool rants are on my private blog! ;). Anyways, shall we get started? =)
[BlOG]
Anyway's WUSSUP world? I ordered my shutter shades 2.0 and THEY ARE SICCCK. They're mainly for style, so don't be hating for usability. They're authentic ones too, so as expected, I hate all knock off versions of any shutter shades. Rocking a cardigan with it is just SWEET. I want to get a scarf for the winter season, but I'm not quite sure of what I'm looking for. Bandannas usually also keep me warm, so maybe I'll get those too for the swag.
I did nothing valuable today, but went on MySpace and played a bit on the 360. I need to start working out again, my biceps were in great looking condition. Today is project soul, but no one I know seems interested to go so W/E. I remember being in the tricking and BBoying scene for a little while. It's still cool to me, but I don't have the time to view and watch videos or live performances. HMM, this blog needs to be livelier though. What's juicy..? Ah, nothing. I'm boring! haha.
Well, let's see what I want over the next year. Man, my bank is gonna break at this rate!
+ My computer to be repaired :| .
+ New Earphones (for my Sansa Fuze)
& after knowing I can save up for senior prom.. (It may cost up to $800! FFFFF. JOB NOW PLZ)
+ Van's Half Cabs (black / white)
+ Scarves and Neck Bandannas
+ One more pair of skinny jeans
+ More t-shirts, illminded tee's rock
+ Track jacket and a hoodie
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